On this journey of rediscovering the Gift called “ME”; I am assured that I am not the only woman, and I’ll even go as far as to say I am not the only Christian Woman that has found themselves lonely, unhappy, unfulfilled caught up in this thing called “life.”  In a world where society rates and ranks us by assigning value to our level of busyness. We alone with others compare ourselves to these measures.  Which is why so many of us feel threatened by the success of others.

True Confession, it’s exhausting trying to do enough, be enough and hold on to the belief “I AM Enough”.

Adopting and adapting the belief that we should be like the Energizer Bunny.  Just keep going and going and going… Trying to satisfy our need to perform, makes it’s difficult to relax, retreat, refresh and refuel. My entire life I pride myself on not only achieving but being an overachiever. The real question is overachieving in what? So often it would seem to go unnoticed or acknowledged. It started as a child looking for acceptance, approval, of my parents.  The need to want to please and not disappoint because others had already given me a false identity. So many times, we are so busy doing good deeds, that were not requested by the recipient nor directed by God.  Assuming our performance, gestures would determine our worth and personal identity, just to end up feeling rejected by those we wanted to desperately love, help, please and care for. 

Our identity the Gift you call “ME” is Priceless, we were created by the Creator.

I’m waking up to the fact that we were created as human “beings“, not as human “doings”. I want to just “be“… Just saying that, is refreshing and gives me a feeling of revival.

I need you, God… I feel so incomplete.  Lord, you are the only one that can transform my heart and mind to recognize my identity.  My soul thirsts for you, fill my cup until it overflows. My self-worth does not depend on the measures of others, nor based on my accomplishments.

-Who have you created me to be? 

-What is my core identity?

-With all the energy sources of Family, Ministry, Business, Boards, Clubs, and Memberships tugging and pulling on me each day. How can I identify the proper outlets? 

All that I do to help resolve the pain and needs of others but at the same time run from or neglect to address my own hurt and pain, grant me your wisdom.  I forgive all who have hurt me and did not acknowledge how much. I cared about them and refused to reciprocate the same love and care in return.  I forgive those who I felt betrayed by.

Penetrate Lord… go deep, here I am, heal me.  I don’t want to be defined by the praises of others and the success of my struggles and accomplishments. 

Transform … here I am waiting …I need you to be Christal Clear in my identity. Help me to receive your Divine Inheritance. I want to allow myself to align with harmony and abundance.  I want to open myself up to receiving the infinite flow of abundance of my personal identification. Remove the thoughts of I can’t have, shouldn’t have and don’t deserve all your great abundance that’s my destiny. Forgive me for taking on too much stuff, busyness and over exhorting myself into circumstances where I thought I had to rescue and save the day.  I am not the Refuge nor Savior, only a load that you can carry. I ask that you do the same for everyone who finds themselves on this journey.